thoughts from my bathroom mirror. pt 1.

This morning I had a moment in front of the mirror. Mid-bobby pin, I was thinking of all the sweetness of love and encouragement my friends and family have given me lately.

Kenzy texted me this morning to say how excited she is with the Saturday forecast. Randyl texted me to ask if I need a coffee or moment of normal. Maria asked me how she can pray for me. Rose came over to my house early in the morning to alter my dress. Emily and Joann let me crash on their couch numerous times before I can move in with Isaac. My bridesmaids are all getting work shifts off, driving hours to get here, and giving all their time this weekend to help however they can.

I COULD GO ON. This is the Emmy acceptance speech I’ll never get to give; let me have this.

After running down this list of sweetness this morning, I opened up Oswald Chamber’s Utmost devotion today. “Pouring out the water of satisfaction.” And it was perfect.

“So the three mighty men broke through the Philistine lines, drew water from the well near the gate of Bethlehem and carried it back to David. But he refused to drink it; instead, he poured it out before the Lord.”-2 Samuel 23:16

In 2 Samuel, David is at the cave of Adullam and is thirsty. Like really thirsty. The water brought back to him would have been so physically refreshing to him, but he knew the risk his men had taken to get it. He had just received this physical blessing of water, along with the blessing of men who put aside their own safety/comfort for his. As the water represented their sacrifice, he poured it out to God. It was too great for him to keep. We’re often given the gift of “friendship, love, or other spiritual blessings.” (Chambers) We are given so much by our Father. He is generous, extravagant, and rich in love. But it is not just for our own benefit but for His glory.

“As soon as I realize that something is too wonderful for me, that I am not worthy to receive it, and that it is not meant for a human being at all, I must pour it out ‘to the Lord.’” –Chambers.

This love and encouragement from my friends during “wedding week” and so many other weeks is one of these gifts. Too wonderful for me, something beyond what I’m worthy of, something resulting from Christ’s work in my friends. His love, grace, humility, and truth radiate from many people around me and reveal more of His glory to me. And that’s His work; so this is His gift.

“If you have become bitter and sour, it is because when God gave you a blessing you hoarded it. Yet if you had poured it out to Him, you would have been the sweetest person on earth. If you are always keeping blessings to yourself and never learning to pour out anything “to the Lord,” other people will never have their vision of God expanded through you.” –Chambers.



on to the next one.

well, the time is here. i’m leaving tomorrow afternoon for europe. ireland for one week, then on to florence until december. it has been a hard but good summer, and i’m really excited to see what i learn this fall. i will miss you friends, so please message/email/skype/visit. measure yourself with a ruler and sharpie, making a mark on your bedroom door. then we can compare when i’m back and i can pat you on the head saying i can’t believe how much you’ve grown!

prayer requests:

safety. health. selflessness and awareness of opportunities to share to gospel. growth as i seek Christ in a new place and season.

I was reading Colossians today and Paul encouraged me (personally, i believe) to “clothe myself with tenderhearted mercy, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience.” And that is my prayer as i head into this adventure. that through everything i would give thanks to Christ, and allow Him to change my character into something more beautiful than it is today. I couldn’t be more excited for this blessing and am excited to share what i see, do, and learn.


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Keep Going.


Whenever I need encouragement, He is faithful to provide it. Always.


Thankful that when I was feeling overwhelmed with school, He gave me diligence and productivity.
Thankful that when I was feeling discouraged with finding an internship, He provided two upcoming interviews.
Thankful that when I needed personal encouragement, He replaced lies with truth through words of great friends and perfect Scripture.


“Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you;

therefore he will rise up to show you compassion.”

         -Isaiah 30:18